Without a hand to hold

Deep inside I'm tormented by thoughts, 

All those questions and all those doubts, 

All I want is support from my loved ones, 

The only ones who have physical presence, 

Saddened because the other one has left me without a hand to hold, 

I can't reach out to either of them, 

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Once again hearing the lone anthem, 

The song that makes me sick, 

Sick and tired of my existence, 

And I wish I'd never been born, 

I'm surrounded with silence, 

With no one to talk to, 

In this earth full of humans, 

With no humanity, 

To escape from this insanity, 

I want to run, 

Far away to another place, 

Where I can be myself, 

And with my dearest, 

Holding me close and nowhere to lose.